Thursday, November 22, 2012

Surrendering All…


I have been thinking a lot about God’s calling on my life. Perhaps that is because of the time of life I am in right now. All around me people are going to University, working part time/full time jobs, graduating, getting married and even having babies. Everyone around me is on such different paths and following their calling so differently. Some are taking longer, some seem to be moving rather quickly. For some of us it seems unbearably slow to the point that we wonder if we are really going anywhere at all. It’s then I  remind myself, yes God does have a plan, yes I am apart of it, and yes there is a reason I am walking the road that I am. Yes I do try to speed up the process more than I should, but then God reminds me to slow down and take notice of the things He is trying to teach me along the way. I realize these lessons are helping me get to the dreams I have but that doesn’t make it any easier because I just want to reach my dreams NOW! One lesson God and I are working on right now is simply this: surrendering it all to Him. And this is one lesson that just keeps getting implemented over and over and over again in my life. It’s probably one lesson I will never be able to grasp fully but will have to keep exploring through out my life.

Why? because I like to consider myself a dreamer. For the most part I find myself a silent dreamer. I don’t tell too many people my dreams simply because I enjoy dreaming. That and there is always this constant fear of what people would think of my dreams. Yes, I think some of them are that out there. Nonetheless though, they are my dreams. They are the things I am passionate about, and they are things that scare me a little. I heard once that “If Your dreams don’t scare you they aren’t big enough.” So that at least brings me a little comfort at least that I am possibly on the right track. These are the things I think about before going to sleep at night. The thoughts that come to mind randomly as I go about my day. Thoughts that never really seem to go away. Thoughts that make me wonder “what if…” and “how can I get there when I am only here?” That’s when I hear God whisper in to my ear,

“Keep dreaming, daughter, never give up on your dreams. For I have given them to you and I have a way planned out already. Nothing is impossible with me, in fact the impossibilities are endless. Keep dreaming but remember to surrender those dreams to me. We will work hard to accomplish them together.”

Oh it is definitely not easy. Especially when I thought I had my life all planned out. Silly me, right? I know I am not alone though. Towards the end of High School that’s all I remember hearing. Have a plan, make sure more School is in that plan, you must do this and that and…AHHHHHH!!!! It just about made me go crazy. Some people may know exactly what God has in store for them right away, but I also know God only gives us as much as we can handle. What if He knows we wouldn’t be able to hand much more? What then?

I was talking to a friend of mine about this. Both of us were thinking back to our graduating year and the life we have lived between then and now. And both of us could honestly say we had planned to be in a totally different place by now then we actually are. We had not planned for it to be hard. We both had plans to be living a life of ease by now. I know that sounds silly and naive but who hasn’t thought that before?

I heard this quote a few days ago, “God hasn’t called us to a life of ease and happiness, He has called us to serve and obey Him.” (Chris, AIO, The Chosen One)


“Maybe God’s plan for us is different than our plan. Maybe He wants us to go down a more challenging road.” (Elaine, AIO, The Chosen One)

Boy did that not set me straight or what!?!?! A little kick  to knock some sense in to me. God may not have an easy map ahead for me as I follow my dreams, and no I do not have all the answers. (I wish) but I do have God on my side and He has promised to not give me more than I can handle at any given time. And what He has given me, He gives me with one request. That I take it, keep dreaming, then give it back to Him so He can grow it, use it, and make it far better then I could of if I had kept it to myself. It’s about surrendering it all daily and continuing to serve, trust, and obey the One that makes it al possible in the end.

Before I end, God gave me this picture a while ago, but it’s a picture that I have never forgotten:

I saw a parent and a child standing face to face. The child had stuffed his pockets full of candies and looked quite pleased with Himself for He loved candy a lot. The parent stood in front of him holding a jar, telling the child to put all of his precious candies in to the jar. The child starts pulling candy out of his pockets and throwing them in the jar. Once he got to the last few he pretended that was all hoping to hold on to at least a few of them, for he wasn’t sure if He’d ever see them again. Not fooling his Dad, His Dad looked at him and asked "Are you sure that is all" Guiltily the boy pulled out the remaining candies and reluctantly threw them in the now full jar. The Dad puts the lid on and screws it on so it is sealed tightly before putting it on a high shelf safe from little eager hands.
"I will keep this safe for you. You may have one at a time, when I say. Trust me that I know what I am doing. Trust me that my timing is right. If I gave these all to you now, you would surely get sick."
Of course the little child was still not too sure what he had done, but he listened to his father anyways and in time, when He asked for a candy, His father gave Him one or two at a time. Now the boy had something to look forward to, and at the same time, could enjoy each candy that much more.

Moral of the story: God only gives us what we can handle, no more no less, simply so we won’t get overwhelmed. This way, we still have room to keep dreaming and to live out lives with hope.

God has been using this song to speak to me so much lately. He is so good!

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Out of Our Hands

I was browsing YouTube one evening before crawling in to bed and I literally stumbled across this song. I had never heard it and it was written by someone I had really grown to like so I clicked on it and…WOW! It was an amazing song! I could write more but to be honest I am at a loss for words. With everything that I have been thinking about and praying about…this song was the answer for so many of those things.

There are four things that have been the subjects of my prayers lately:

1) Healing for Jessica, she is recovering, but she still needs lots of prayer and we need to persevere and keep praying until we see her rise and walk out of that hospital. This situation may be out of our hands but she is in God’s hands and that is the best place for her to be. That is why we pray!

Ephesians 3:20

“Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think. Glory to him in the church and in Christ Jesus through all generations forever and ever! Amen!” (NLT)

2) My cousin Sheleta and my entire family. I won’t go in to too many details but I have been praying intensely for divine wisdom and revelation. Jesus, I pray for my family that even when we can do nothing else that we would be able to stand against the wiles of the devil, against all assumptions others are spreading against us, and against anything the devil continues to throw our way. Help us to STAND!

“A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on all of God’s armour so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil. For we are not fighting against flesh and blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places. Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armour so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standing firm.” (NLT)

3) I have really been praying for my friend Chelsey that she would know her creator and redeemer and that she would come to accept the free gift that he has offered her. That she would live up to all he has called her to be. I know that calling is higher than what she is living right now because of this verse, God has given me, to speak and pray over her life. She is chosen by God and I pray earnestly for the day she finally comes to accept all that God has given her…AMEN!

“Go, for Saul is my chosen vessel to take my message to all the Gentiles and to kings, as well as to the people of Israel. And I will show him how much he must suffer for my name’s sake.”

4) Lastly, I have really been praying and seeking God over my future. In some ways I think I have it all figured out, but I also know that God has so much more planned. He has given me dreams and desires I can’t even begin to explain. I went to a conference in March and one of the speakers said something that I can’t get out of my mind. He said, “If your dreams don’t scare you, you aren’t dreaming big enough” The dreams he has given me…they scare me. They scare me ALOT! This really confirmed a lot and this really confirmed that these things were from God. Now I pray that he shows me how to move forward with these dreams and that he shows me how to see these things happen. I’m scared…but it is really out of my hands. It’s his calling for my life…I’m not about to stand in the way of what he wants to see happen no matter if I’m scared and no matter if I think I wouldn’t be good at these things. There probably is a better person out there to do the things he wants me to do but he wants me. This is my life verse, it seems to fit no matter what I am going through, praying for, or thinking about.

Philippians 4:4-9

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.” (NIV)


Join with me and pray for these people. They may be out of our hands but they are in God’s hands…and that is the best place for them to be!

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Song For A Friend

(How Do I Tell Her?)

Searching in all the wrong places

Searching long and hard

Longing for something different

Something so much more

She’s my lost sister

Lost to the world

And I pray for the day

She desperately cries out

How she was wrong

That its forgiveness she wants

Forgiveness and Her Father’s Love


Until then I wait

Praying every night:

“God invade her dreams

Invade her heart

Show her the way to life”


How do I tell her of the saviour I love?

Of the love He showed as He died for the world

How do I tell her of the Father above?

How he watches and listens to all we have to say

Never tiring of spending time with His children

Each and every day

How do I tell her that she is never alone?

Through the rough times and joyous times

When she is near and far from home

His presence goes with her wherever she goes


How do I tell her

How I dream of the day

She walks in this freedom

And accepts all that Jesus gave…


God desires that all may be saved. Why wouldn’t he? He made us all. So why is that not our utmost desire. Why are we not striving to live to see people saved?

Jesus break our heart for what breaks yours. Let everything we do bring Glory to You! We lift our friends to you, our family members to you, our co workers for you, our fellow students to you. May they come to find and experience the amazing grace you give…Amen!